Thursday, January 10, 2008
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Tuesday, January 01, 2008
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ok it's been a really long time since i've updated. i've just been too caught up with activities and it's only now that i finally feel more settled and stuff.

i actually wrote a really long and draggy post on whats been happening in my life since i came back but i decided to delete it. i've been thinking for a while how meaningless my blog post have become. basically since i came back i've been spending time with my family, what with steamboat my mom prepared on the day i arrived, curry the nxt day, Ikoi buffet for christmas dinner, and den it was off to hongkong with the family. countdown was spent again, not with friends this year, but with my family. i did feel tempted to go for new year bash, or the celebration at roy's place, but thinking how my family only gets reunited like twice a yr, i thought it was better to stay home.

yeah well, anw, my sis flew home on the 1st, and i'm not quite sure when's the nxt time all of us would be together again, nor am i sure when's the nxt time i'd have time to go down to london to visit her. so from now onwards its all trying to catch up with everyone before i go back. i was just flipping through my organiser, and got kinda freaked out when i realised i'm flying back nxt nxt wk end. and i feel like i've been back for 1week only or sth :(

yeah well anw, i usually write a post at the end of the yr reflecting whats been happening for 2007 or sth. in general, 07 doesn't even feel like a yr at all. everything just seemed to drift by so fast. well to think abt it, i daresay from after As till the start of uni has been the best holiday of my ENTIRE LIFE. i'm sure you've read abt my endless ranting about how much i miss bintan holiday, the mahjong days/gym/chomps/liquid kitchen and together with the weekly saturday outings, food hunting with sam and the rest, shopping trips with hs, driving lessons and complaing abt the cheeko instructors.

and den there was the release of A level results, NUS interview, decision of King's vs Sheff, mango/zara/fox/g2000blu shopping spree for winter clothes, visa application, packing, which led to the ultimate flight on the 13th of September to London Heathrow, where dad drove me up to sheff with my severely overweight luggage.

i don't know how to start reflecting on the first 3mths of my overseas education journey. i can't seem to find the correct words to pen down how i exactly feel. i can honestly say that even before i flew home i was thinking abt the dread of flying back. school work and the course is fine and interesting and i really enjoy it [haven't had exams. haha] food wise, it's ok. i noe i appear to be a foodie fanatic to most ppl but honestly, i didn't miss sg food that badly, prolly coz i do my own cooking. i guess the people and the money has affected me most significantly. i can't seem to get along, or find ppl i can mix with and feel happy with in sheffield. it's probably just person A that's contributing to 40% of my misery. i noe as a reader you'd probably be thinking to urself that why dont' i just stop associating myself with person A, but its not that easy as our lives are rather interlinked. its not like in sg where you can just try to distance urself from people you think you cannot get along with, argh i don't know how to explain why its different. or maybe i'm just such a softie that i just rather chew and swallow my words. i don't know..
the other 40% of my misery was due to monetary issues. i keep blogging about how much i'm trying to scrimp and save. just to clarify, i do have more than enough money to last me the entire year, its just that trying to comply with mom's weekly budget of 50pounds and juggling my social life is proving too difficult for the puny brain of mine.
and finally, the last 20% of my misery is of coz due to the loneliness and how much i miss my family and friends. upon reflection, i came to the conclusion that its coz i've been having so much fun and spending so much time with my friends and family in the first half of the yr when i wasn't doing anything.

so i've been doing some serious thinking [don't be mistaken that my brain is only focussed on food :P], if i were to continue living like that when i'm back, i'd probably not survive 5yrs. [considering how i haven't been able to sleep and the hormonal aspect of my body has gone up in protest for 3months and counting]. i have to change my mindset towards certain things. like how i see most people are enjoying themselves overseas, i'm going to put in an effort to enjoy myself as well. 40% of misery due to personA, i can't think of a solution to it. 40% due to money, i'm going to have to try to relax abt it. i can't just keep thinking abt it and stressing myself up. and the other 20%, i'm sure it'll be better this term as school life has already been kinda established in a "routine"

and i guess that's about it. i sincerely hope and pray that 2008 would be a better year. let me be more mature and independent and more apt at handling issues.

and to end with are some pictures i took over the christmas.



the every petite sister. makes me look so fat. location: hong kong
my car in 30yrs time.
the perfect afternoon tea!
sis's departure back to uk. 1.1.08


Thursday, December 20, 2007
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my day was improved [no, unfortunately, not by the plumber, i swear their all on holiday, and when i depress my carpet, i can see water oozing out. ITS GROSS], yeah anw, it was improved when tracey came over and we whipped up a chinese home cooked meal of "chicken rice" rice [from one of the packets mom sent me], stir fry chicken breast with Lee Kum Kee Pork Rib Sauce, half a garlic bread, and Doritos with homemade salsa.

and den after a really full meal, while surfing facebook :P, we went on to our christmas present from the med school, 53 freaking mcqs. i swear, its either i haven't been doing proper revision, or it was in a bid to scare the shit out of us so we'll work during the christmas. anw we started at 930pm and finished at about 1215am.

too full to sleep, and its 208am and i have 4lects tmr. but i just can't, might as well read Essential Haematology. last day of school! ~


the bomb! White Russian at Bia Hoi [pronounced BEE-AH-HOI] Pink russian was good too!


Wednesday, December 19, 2007
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you noe, as i was blogging yesterdays entry, i was thinking, life is too good to be true. and yes of coz when things FINALLY starts looking up, life throws you shit again.

well ok in my case, its not really that bad a thing, its just that things would be perfect if not for the fact that some bloody pipe in my room is leaking, which has leaked into my carpet in my closet, causing my washing powder to be wet, soaking through my cardboard box. now, everything from that area is placed outside, causing my small room to look even WORST. [not including the fact that i have at least 2 loads of washing and hanging up of laundry to do in my room] and with all these stuff cluttered around,how the hell am i gonna take my suitcase out to pack?

arghh irritated.

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had a great day today and i'm one happy girl. or more like this week started out so much better than last week's one. last week, i had dissection class on monday, travelling 2hrs to Northern General Hospital for Basic Life Support on Wed, and ILA on thurday. plus, i wasn't in a very good mood.

this week, i only have dissection on monday, and i went to Population! yesterday with Vaso and Minoli. it's been a while since we've been out, and it was Global Population, so we got our tickets for 1pound! and they were selling VK Tropical! it was great fun, apart from a small event which left me :S

and yes continuing my schedule, i had class from 9-11 today, class from 9-11 tmr, class from 9-12 tmr, and den 12-2 me and Vaso would be doing the med school interview tours. and there's no school on friday! thats just school.

today i went to the city centre in the afternoon, and i got 2 H&M summer dresses for like 7pounds each, which is 21sgd, and their the kind where ppl always buy from online for like 40sgd so YAY! BUT, Vaso paid for me coz she said that'll be my christmas gift! :) and den i walked around and saw stuff and bought them as well, not for myself so i'm THOROUGHLY broke. Vaso and Min went to Nando's for dinner [last Nando's before we go back] and i proceeded on to meet Srujana [the other sg girl] to head on to the yr2 sgp's house for steamboat. sort of like a gathering and to celebrate Davinder's bday. i really enjoyed myself, and basked in the atmosphere of all the singaporeans. guessed what the more common topics they talked about were? politics, working in sg vs working in uk, AND....................................

ARMY TALK! zomg, to think that i'm still being subject to listening to stuff like "the chee b** MO damn D* L** lah, only give me attend B etc etc etc....." hahaha hilarious. and it was so funny to hear words like cb and dl being used again as opposed to f*** that we were kinda tickled. had loads of fishballs, sotong balls, chicken, pork, veg, beehoon, sausages, crabsticks. all of us chipped in and me and sruj was in charge of buying the crabstick and fishballs.

i have that warm fuzzy feeling now, sth i haven't felt in a while. i guess its prolly coz of the gathering, the shopping and the fact that its last week of school and i'm more relaxed, and I'LL BE SEEING YOU GUYS FROM SUNDAY ONWARDS!

yupp anw tmr is rest day, gonna finish up my readings so i won't have to do work during the break, thurs i'm being invited to the Christmas party their holding at my kitchen. these 2 guys are cooking so all of us pay 5pounds and there. don't think i'd be talking much but its nice to be invited,and i would like to experience how the locals celebrate their christmas. hope i won't be too left out.

Friday is free day. gonna pack my stuff, head on to Tesco's to spend my 2pound voucher, buy alcohol and nanchos etc, pack my suitcase, get Min and Vaso to push my luggage up the bloody hill, and we're having a girls night + alcohol, [apparently in a bid to make everyone drunk]. and den before i noe it its Saturday, and we're off off and away to Manchester Airport! and den the next time i open my eyes, i'm in sunny [hopefuly it'll be sunny by then] sunny island! [apparently the temp diff btw sg and sheff is so great, davinder couldn't take it and didn't feel good. i hope nothing happens to me, the worst scenario is getting sick! CHOI]

ok den, off to catch up some missing sleep from yesterday.

night guys!
Monday, December 17, 2007
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i know, as much as i've been complaining and self consoling, i really don't noe how i'm going to get through this coming 6more days. i am dying so much to come back like flying off tmr or sth.
Saturday, December 15, 2007
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whoo, thinking back, this week has been some kinda emotional rollercoaster for me. basically its just me feeling really really homesick and certain things happening back home made me really unhappy. but its affected my mood the whole week, and even the studying bit? i've just been surfing thru my recommended readings coz i HAVE to and not actually absorbing anything.. sigh

and its the christmas season and everyone's geared up for PARTYING and i'm like the wet blanket. basically just not interested in wasting my money on clubbing, rather sit in like Bia Hoi and drink white russian/ pink russian or sth. which reminds me i'm BROKE.

i don't noe what i do with my money, considering i'm always trying to save here and there, but like woah.. ok i bought stockings and long black socks coz its getting freaking cold [it was 0 degrees at 12noon today], and leg warmers! haha.. and so after school, which was a 4hr lect in the lt with NO HEATING today [it says alot about the finances of the med school] i went to the city centre to do christmas shopping for the 3 of them. i got a "grow a boyfriend" from robyn. just in case ur wondering, it's this rubber-ish thing, and when you put it in water, it GROWS. and i got a Mr T Bubble Bath from minoli, which is bubble bath in a muscular man figurine. all takin a good swipe at my lack of love life. HAHA.

bought their presents all at M&S, and when i was there i was just drooling at all the food at the food hall and at the back of my mind cursing the fact that i'm so @#$%^$% poor. [btw, i'm in a bit to stop cursing. coz it seems i'm such a pushover i've been influenced in "spicing" up my language to suit the NORM here, that i realised once i go home i'd be labelled as an UNREFINED woman.] well ok, i had to get milk anw, so i subcummbed to 4 carrot and walnut muffins.

and den it was still 0 degrees, and i was standing waiting for the bus, and den i saw 80 and i ran for it[80 stops RIGHT OUSIDE my house]. and den of coz after like 20mins into the bus journey, i was wondering why the bus was travelling such a weird route, to realise my low power contact lenses read 90 as 80. again i was like @#$%. dropped at some place i knew, and i walked UPHILL WITH ALL MY HEAVY SHOPPING. finally reached home, too hectic day, unwinding now with a cup of earl grey. though i really need to do some studying. i have 1 more week [which seems so hard to pass] to finish up all my work.

robyn left for manchester today, and flying off tomorrow. was over at her place watching her pack to say bye, and i really really really really x10 can't wait to go home.

got a christmas party at minz place later in her kitchen, and den staying over at vaso's coz i do not fancy walking back in this freezing temperature.

i was killing time between lunch and lessons at the Health Sciences Library today, [unlike what my coursemates are doing, pouring over Kumar & Clarke, or at the computer room printing lecure notes] i was checking the weather for HK. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA, well i have to prepare like warm clothes to bring home in case hong kong's winter is cold wat, but errr 16-22? haha i think i'm just gonna bring home a cardigan and wear short sleeve tshirts or sth.

yes btw, its really funny hearing vaso [my cyprian friend] speak more and more like a singaporean [i nvr really noticed how we sound like, till i heard her speak], and its hilarious. coz there's me, robyn and jinn, and when the 3 of us speak, you can see the bewildered look on their face when all the lah lee lors comes up.HAHA

i am rambling alot aint i, prob in one of the better moods i've been over the week.

oh random fact, i've alr made a mental note which jeans to wear on board the plane, and which ones to pack. and i'm buying sommerfields chocolate chip cookies to bring along on my train/plane journey from sheffield - london. and my campaign to clear my freezer is coming along pretty well! [just a random info, i had like meatballs, sausages, frozen pasta, char siew pau, chicken pau, fishballs, 5drumsticks, 2 porkribs, 2 chicken breast, frozen apple crumble] i do in fact still have rhaspberry jam, NUTELLA (3/4 full), peanut butter, Thorton chocolates, ginger snaps, salt&vinegar chips, lemon chicken & thyme chips. typing this out makes me realise i do have alot of SNACKS. [shh i act have 1 and a half packets full of MILO sachets, and 1 box of HELLO PANDA]

ok i've bored the shit out of everyone, but can't seem to stop. nxt wk at this time, i'd be packing my bag, eating pizza with tracey and min and vaso, all happy and excited to go home. 1 more week, 1 more week, 1 more week of removing hearts & lungs and squinting eyes to spot arteries and veins from Netter's or Snells, or to read Underwood's or basically, to just sit in that BLOODY FREEZING LT.

now i'm buzzing off, see you guys in 9days [8days till i fly off though!]
Thursday, December 13, 2007
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looking forward to go home so much, that i'm actually thinking of what would be in my Q pack while trying to understand blood groups.

random, last night's white russian and pink russian was so good, so fat, coz it contained cream and milk in it. tonight's sort of like the last hanging out session of the 4 of us before R flys home.

9more days [not including today]
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